ugh
today sucked…it was alright till about an hour or so ago when i started thinking all my depressing thoughts again…people say im emo and think its funny to pick at every single fucking flaw i have ugh i hate it…if anyone actually gives a fuck im emo because of all you people who say im emo, because of all you people who like to pick at any little flaw who have something to say about ever god damn thing i ever do…im emo because no matter wtf i do all you assholes love to pick on me…why because i wont say anything back…because im to god damn kind to say how much of an asshole you are, how stupid and idiodic you are…….thats why im fuckin emo because no matter what i fuckin do its not good enough for anyone…because no matter what every1 else seems to get anything they want meanwhile i get maybe 1/3rd of what i want..ugh idk im being a fuckin idiot again….. damn it why do i fuckin cry over shit like this…………………………………………….
One of Kelleys Poems
Always on my mind,
Something that makes me smile,
But at the same time,
This thing makes me nervous,
I get lost in the thoughts,
Forgetting what I should be doing,
Wanting to spend every second with this person,
But being forced apart,
Wishing I could spend forever in his arms,
When I come back from thoughts,
I realize we are apart,
Waiting to see you again.
Toxic Tears
Friday
Friday was a normal day until i got home then i got a text from my awesome girlfriend Kelley askin to go see a movie. I asked my mom and she didnt have a problem with it ^.^. Around 9 i got dropped off at her house and even though Kelley says its a mess my house is messier :p. Kelley and i hung out in her room talkin for a while until we left to go see holloween. Pretty good movie and i think i jumped more than kelley lol. We got back to her house spent 5 mins alone then shannon walked in and the three of us spent the next 20 mins talkin. Kelley says she wouldve given me a kiss if shannon hadnt been there, thx shannon -.-…
Sorry luis…
I know your the only one who reads this so sorry for not posting lol anyways for all you readers (-.-) feel free to fill this out guy girl or in between (dont think i have any friends like that) ill try to catch up on my blog lol
What would you do if?
1. I was right next to you:
2. I kissed you:
3. I lived next door to you:
4. I started smoking:
5. I was hospitalized:
6. I was drunk:
7. I hugged u:
8. I asked you to leave:
9. I asked you out:
What do you think about my?
10. Personality:
11. Eyes:
12. Hair:
13. Body:
Would you?
14. Be my friend?
15. Keep a secret if i told you one?
16. Kiss me?
17. Go on a date with me?
18. Keep in touch?
19. Date me?
Have you ever?
21. Lied to make me feel better?
22. Wanted to kiss me?
23. Wanted to bite me?
24. Kept something important from me?
25. Wanted to cuddle with me?
More.
26. Who are you?
27. Are we friends?
28. When and how did we meet?
29. Describe me in one word:
30. What was your first impression?
31. What reminds you of me?
32. If you could give me anything what would it be?
33. How well do you know me?
34. When’s the last time you saw me?
35. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn’t?
36. Are you gonna post this so you can see what I say about you?
You must answer all these questions and send them back to me,
please dont hold back, be complety honest…
Y= Yes
N = No
M= Maybe
Would/will you?
[] Come to my house to do nothing at all but chill?
[] Fight me?
[] kiss me?
[] Let me kiss you?
[] Watch a movie with me?
[] Go out to dinner with me?
[] Sing car karaoke with me?
[] Re-post this for me to answer your questions?
[] Hold my hand?
[] Let me make you breakfast?
[] Help me with homework?
[] Tickle me?
[] Let me tickle you?
[] Instant message me?
[] Greet me in public?
[] Hang out with me?
[] Bring me around your friends?
[] Be down with me no matter what?
Do you?
[] Think I’m cute?
[] Think I’m Hott
just copy and fill out in a comment
also check out my favorite childhood photo 
School
Ok, august 20 YAY!!! SCHOOL IS SOOOOOOOOO MUCH FUN…ya right. Sure i kinda missed school but only for the ppl i was looking forward to 3 ppl being there and I think one of them left the school T.T My teachers seem ok, except chapman, i get the feeling she has the maturity of a seven year old. But yea kelley and I sit next to each other in first and they teacher wont leave her alone. McCallum is awesome and calls me Alex unlike everyone else. Well anyway imma lay down for a bit b/c my body is sore and i dont feel like being awake right now.
10k Fists
Ok my friend luis had taken it upon himself to take pix of 10,000 differnt fists raised in the air in relation to the most recent album by Disturbed, 10 Thousand Fists In The Air. If you wanna help just get a group of people (or by yourself) and take a picture with your fists high in the air and email them to Jestersniper@yahoo.com
Some Poetry
Here are some of my older poems….
One year, Two year, three year, twelve year…
What the fuck does it count for…
We are all people…
Young and energized…
Tired and old…
We are all people…
Big and tall…
Short and small…
We are all people…
Who honestly cares?
I don’t, and neither should you…
This is for you…
You know who you are…
People who choose to exclude merely upon age…
You were once like them…
Or you will be like them soon…
So I ask you…will you choose to stay separated by some stupid barrier…
Or will you join me and destroy this idiotic wall…
The choice is yours…just remember
We are all people…
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Wandering down this seemingly endless path.
Always focusing on whats a mile away instead of whats infront of me.
I cant change my way there is no right or left for me.
Falling in these stupid ditchs i didnt see coming.
Feeling like a helpless idiot unable to help myself.
Trying to intersect with others who are so clearly far away.
Falling on my ass trying to break away from this tight pull to my path.
A path of failure, misery, and loneliness…and im stuck to it, like a magnet to a fridge.
When will I be pried off the path and given another chance, when will the magnet be moved…
Staring down this endless path I see no start or finish, only failure, misery, and loneliness…
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Pull up my sleeve and see the pattern of my cuts
They are from the pain and agony of loneliness
They are from my energy poured into the razor blade
They are from the rejection that lies fresh in my head
They are from the thought of everlasting sorrow
They are from the words fresh from her mouth
They are from trying to rebuild my heart again
They are from mindlessly thinking could it have gone better
They are from anger and sorrow
They are my way of dealing with all that shit what yours?
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Dreamy like the sky
ravishing beauty
ever ready to be unique
always acts like herself
makes herself known
always lovable and lovely
